Getting right. At least for today.

I took the day off today and I feel guilty about that. I shouldn’t. But I do. I woke up this morning and just couldn’t get out of bed. My body is so tired. Working two jobs is kicking my butt. I love both of my jobs and I’m finally getting to a place where…

Power struggles.

Last night I ran into someone that I hadn’t seen in a while. I knew I would be running into him and I was hesitant because the last time I heard from him, he was bad mouthing me. It hurt back then, especially because I thought we were friends. But, I figured he would be…

Fragile and fierce.

Oh 2018, you did a number on me. I cried a lot. My heart ached so much at times that I didn’t know how I was going to recover. I said quite a few “goodbyes” and once or twice, felt as though I was completely unraveling. There was confusion, doubt, despair, desperation, anxiety and fear….

No love for the haters.

I haven’t written much lately. I guess I haven’t felt inspired. But whenever this happens, I know that if I just give it some time, the universe will speak to me and the words will start flowing again. I write a lot about my journey in finding myself and about trauma and how that has…

Masks

Halloween this year was quite significant for me. Every year, I go all out. I spend a lot of time on my costumes. I take it very seriously, and a few years I have even won the top prize at the costume contests that are scattered throughout the bars in town. I love getting into…

No, I didn’t let myself go. I just let go.

I make fun of myself a lot. I do that because it makes me feel better about the things I’m insecure about. And because I don’t want anyone to really know that I’m insecure about it because that just makes me look insecure. Anyways, in recent weeks, I’ve gained a few pounds. OK, more than…

What happened to us?

Every time I write about rape or assault, I wonder if it will be my last blog about such a deep, dark subject. I started my blog to inspire people, to give them hope and make them smile. The point of my blog is to help people and yet, I just keep going off on…

I believe you.

I took a little trip this past weekend to the beautiful Upper Peninsula. I thought that a break from reality and time spent in my hometown with my family would be just what I needed to recharge. Where I’m from, the great up north, is so calming and peaceful and the scenery this time of…

#WhyIDidntReport

#WhyIDidntReport   Trump, in a tweet, said that if the alleged sexual assault on Ford was “as bad as she says,” then “charges would have been immediately filed.” Ok Donald. Now you done pissed me off. I didn’t report because when I told my best friend (I was 12) she didn’t believe me. I felt…

A simple text.

I’ve been feeling the darkness getting closer lately. Bad thoughts have been crossing my mind. I’ve been struggling with my anxiety and it seems like lately, I don’t really like myself. I’m dwelling on my mistakes, overwhelmed with regrets and just feeling like a failure at life. The strangest part though, is knowing that my…